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Release Date: 2021-01-01Labels: crystalline morphologies, Sming Sming
Limited edition LP on transparent vinyl with spooky black smoke, with glossy jacket and silver obi-strip. Includes download card.Statement from Johanna Hedva—
This record is a document of grief at the death of my mother. The journey the record takes you on begins with encountering death, the rage and violence that this summons; to the wash of grief, all the tears and heaving feelings that it brings; to a small, little crying-out in the dark; to, finally, not acceptance, but surrender to the annihilation of it. These stages of the story map to the songs: "O Death" is the angry encounter, a doom song that is violently bare; the washing tears is the song "Wash"; the small cries are the two ballads in the middle, "Family" and "Taking"; and then "2 Coins" and "Mary" at the end are the annihilation.
My voice and the guitar are two voices that are battling each other but also singing in a kind of desperate harmony. They keep trying to find each other in the dark. At times the guitar is ferrying me to the underworld, like the mythological ferryman Charon, and at other times, it is death itself. Both of us are demons, or are we angels. It's also my mother, maybe. In the end, the body of the guitar is killed. I stand over it, like a preacher, and say the Hail Mary. My mother's name was Mary. When I perform Black Moon Lilith live, I dress either like a preacher or a gravedigger. In a line, it's about the labor of death.
Words I want for Black Moon Lilith: terrifying, annihilation, cosmic darkness, the song of whales, the sound of the void, deep time. It should not be easy to listen to, both in concept and affect. It demands attention because it's an entire world from beginning to end that eats you. It should scare you but feel good, like it's cleaning you out. It should be a heavy blanket of darkness that is comforting, like how a blanket can be too heavy but also be what you want.
"O Death" recorded at Human Resources Los Angeles
"Wash" recorded and mixed at Amplify Berlin
"Family" recorded by Hedva, at home in Berlin
"Taking" recorded by Hedva, Amplify Berlin
"2 Coins" and "Mary" recorded at Vox Ton, Berlin
Thanks to Schorr Guitars for the guitar, and Rerun Electronics for the amp, on "Wash" and "Taking"
Thanks to John Herndon for the amp on "O Death"